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Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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Beatles

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You scored as Fool On the Hill. Fool On the Hill 100% Penny Lane 100% Fixing a Hole 83% Eleanore Rigby 83% Revolution 67% With a Little Help From My Friends 67% In My Life 67% Let It Be 67% Lucy In the Sky 50% A Day In The Life 50% I Am the Walrus 33% Yesterday 17% Maxwell's Silver Hammer 17% Rocky Racoon 0% Which Beatles Song Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

good times

I got a really nice new computer last week. I found that Slackware loaded even though I had greatly changed my hardware. Windows didn't load so I installed XP before the LAN and I've been using it since Wednessday. I only got BSOD-ed at the LAN because it didn't like UT2K4. I found I like Winamp 5 and some of the new versions of software I hadn't tried in a while. I'm going to be living in a Windows world for a little while but I don't mind much because I use my computer for so little all I really need is internet access and a workable web browser with an OS that can run well. I don't miss too much of my favorite software in Linux because now I get to rediscover some of my favorite Windows software.

Self improvement is always a good mortal goal. Clapton.

"hello oblivion"

Rocky was okay. It will never be like the first time. Numb hands always remind me of that. LSD flashbacks! Then: Hand in ice chest, Will, bad AIMing, 01-05, and of course 101=5 thus potato=pothead. Now: friends, Nickelodeon (LSD), memories, distraction, music. After: new music, Avalon, friends, getting by, etc.

A talker can't talk without the talkee and a listener can't listen without the listenee. It's not where you are, as long as you are positioned equally. Everything must be double sided. Sticky. I need to be a talkee and a listener more.

Styx can't be the best but for some reason they are. Sabbath and BOC are goooood. The Doors of perception exist more than ever. I will try to stop my rambling at times... it is good and bad.

"the brink of emptiness"

I've been told I have no emotion, I show no emotion, and I am inhuman. These statements are comical but false. I seem to lack emotion and I seem to have completely chaotic thought, but it is only because I have to force normality sometimes it seems. I have been cold, I've found heat, I've been cold again, and I've taken a sweatshirt or two from kind strangers along the way. It seems that all my posts are the same anymore. Everything is the same with a slight twist at times. I know this is only because of me and my thoughts. Yesterday wasn't the same I think. Thank you to the kind strangers nice enough to spare a random bum some warmth for a little time. I wish I could find that warmth more often but only certain sweatshirts at certain times seem to work. I can get by in the cold though. I always did before and it's not so bad once you get used to it. At least I can find warmth more often than I used to be able to, which was almost never. Domo.

"Machines dehumanize."

Someone needs to make a damn teleporter soon. I sit here all alone talking through AIM and occasionally the phone. "Faces look ugly when you're alone." I'm not bored out of my mind but I am certainly on a level of boredom, be it high or low. Sometimes I just need to be with a person to actually "talk" to a person. I can talk over AIM but I can rarely express myself. Voice inflection, body language, emotions, and the physical presence of a person is something so different than this keyboard and monitor I sit in front of. Sometimes life seems more lonely when you can talk to someone but that someone is completely out of reach. mount /dev/teleporter

I went through the Reunion and Best Of Black Sabbath albums today. I need to see the movie "The Doors" and "Shawn of the Dead". I seem to have a "band of the day/hour" which often ends up being The Doors, Styx, or Black Sabbath. Mental wandering is the ultimate way to pass time while bored. rambleness is.

Carbs Forever!

When you've been eating dry toasted bread for a long time and you switch to buttered bread for a week it's hard to switch back, especially when you've tried buttered bread with honey. Whenever I'm about to start complaining about my dry bread I remember that my bread is toasted, burnt sometimes but toasted nonetheless. I had a horribly boring day today. The highlight of my time in classes today was eating cold buttered toasted raisin bread which I had toasted this morning and forgot to eat. Red Hot Chili Peppers, raisin bread, and math class go well together.

My songs recently:
RHCP - My Friends, The Doors - People Are Strange, Aerosmith - Dream On, Styx - Mr. Roboto, Blind Melon - No Rain, Black Sabbath - Paranoid, Styx - Best of Times, Beatles - With a Little Help From My Friends

"Faces look ugly when you're alone"

The streets certainly are uneven when you're down. When alone one has time to wonder what purpose everything they do serves. One has time to ponder over the point of trivial activities with anyone and everyone. Everything is just as it used to be but it doesn't feel like it used to. The outside of an old Mercedes may look similar to when it was first purchased but the compartments inside undergo wear and tear and they fall apart every once in a while. Once you have had a taste of honey it's difficult to go back to dry bread, even for a day. Boredom isn't bad unless one enters hopeless philosophical realms. We can't do the same thing forever. If we try to continue with our daily routines we will eventually become horribly bored of them and crave something different but not know what to do to spark the change needed. Refer to my blender post which isn't here but there.