Save, Save!

Ever felt sick to your stomach, hugry, and full at the same time? Stress time! Why? I really don't know. Parents, school, social interaction (lack thereof also), obligations, promises, emptiness, fullness, unsureness, and etc-ness. This post is one in which I will complain. Where is my warm safe place? I want to hide.

Friday was the best day I've had in a long time after the some of the worst days I've had in a while. Saturday was okay at first and got better and better as the day went on. Sunday was a wasted day filming nothingness. Monday was a day which I cannot remember. Tuesday was okay.

Today was good at first but then came the Save. Our movie for English is an advertisement for the American Dream: Fame. David Bowie! I spent well over 2 hours forcing Anthony to butcher scenes we didn't need and change the theme song to Fame by David Bowie. Windows Movie Maker crashed more times than I could count. Anthony and I started singing Fame and replacing the word fame with the word save to remind us to save every 5 seconds! Why is it only Wednessday? I'd actually be looking forward to the weekend but I have an indefinite amount of too much time my hands and at undefined times. This means that I am always stressing over the fact that in 5 min I could somewhere that I don't want to be doing something I don't want to do, but I could also be having fun in 5 min. I never know. It's not so much the fact that I have too much time on my hands at any given time. The horrible part for me is that I never know when any plan I make will be ruined in seconds time due to a sudden urgent call for work from above. Basically, I can never ever make a plan and be more than 60% sure I will be able to do my plan. It's the show that never ends. I wish I couldn't attend. What was that promise that you made?